Thursday, March 25, 2021

33 Collages....about my divorce

 


I've been over the break-up of my marriage so many times I've lost count. Over means over--until that feeling is over. And then there you are again. In it.

When I found out that the Someone intended to terminate (in fact had terminated) my alimony at the end of 2020, I dropped into feeling it all again. Add in a pandemic, a quarantine, and a recent interest in all things book arts--and here you have it. One collage for every year spent with someone I never really knew. 

These individual collages are not meant to each sum up a particular year, but simply reflect my thoughts and feelings in the moment of making them. 

And  of course, “These are works made of paper. Any similarity to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events, is purely coincidental.”  I might add that life often feels as fragile as paper and seems quite dependent on coincidence.

In a day or two I hope to sign the official paper that says I expect no more alimony. It turns out that the Someone is not only completely retired, he's in ill-health. 

As this final collage of the series reflects, I'm ready to move on.

Light a Candle and Move On


Thursday, March 11, 2021

You can't always get what you want


This squirrel wants birdseed. 

I want some more years of alimony. 

Neither is going to happen. 

My bird feeder is a Brome Squirrel Buster Plus. The Ferrari of bird feeders.

As for the alimony, once upon a time it, too, was pretty high-powered. Now it's sitting in the junkyard. 

I'm okay with it. Really. (No, this blog has not been hacked. It's me. Denise. The person who ranted all through her 41/2 year divorce proceedings and beyond.)  I'm glad I bought the spendy bird feeder before the Ferrari ran off the road. 

And here is a postcard from Divorceville (No, it wasn't a wonderful time and  I don't wish you were here.)

Expulsion (5x7 original collage with magazine papers, handpainted paper, and construction paper)