Thursday, October 22, 2015

Leaving Albuquerque

power lines in the Albuquerque dawn 

I dreamed I died last night.

Terminally ill, I invoked the right to die and took a large capsule of morphine. People knew I was going to do it. But I did it without much fanfare. Oh, by the way, I told one of my daughters. I took the capsule and tonight when I go to bed, I won't wake up.

This morning when I awoke, I felt weighed down. The responsibility of love is not a weightless thing.  It has heft and substance and every morning we pick it up again--if we are so blessed to awake and have love in our lives.

The road trip  continues. I'm off to see friends, friends of friends, and family. Places familiar and new.  Sights seen and unseen. Connections winding tighter. The power of love anchoring me to this earth and rising upward and beyond the known world.

Do you see the outstretched hand? 


Ms. Moon said...

Good Lord, but what you said here is so true. Love does have such heft and substance. You put that so incredibly beautifully.
Thank you.
Safe travels, dear woman.

Elizabeth said...

So beautiful. I miss you. I want to hug you and talk for hours and catch up. When?

37paddington said...

life is so all of everything, all at once. this post captures that. what does it say that i don't see the outstretched hand but i keep seeing a fetus. twins. weird.